sometimes
i wish i can take benardyl and ambien all the time and just sleep and zone out especially on days like today.
i always find myself enjoying myself better when I’m alone with a guitar and a notebook. Just sitting there writing. shows more emotion. I don’t like hanging out with people lately. Or answering my phone. or anyone at that matter. just spending time with my guitar. and writing. that’s all that’s important right now
what
are you becoming, randy?
everything you said you wouldn’t, you are. and you don’t even care. you don’t even care what you are becoming you know you are but you’re letting it happen. You shouldn’t justify it and run away from what you’ve known. you didn’t mean to treat you bad, but you did it anyway. Stop it. just run away from it. stop. go back to those who you had. and what you had. stop while you’re ahead. have free will. and control. just stop.
i have so much to say and I’m gonna say it. it may not be through conversations but music speaks better.
i
have learned a lot this weekend.
here is my list
1. the night time is so peaceful. it can be so calm if you know how and when to appreciate it.
2. people can’t have what is theirs, they always have to take what is yours.
3. people do not have self respect and morals now a days. I messed up, and I apologize- your fault.
4. people that mean everything can mean nothing in the the blink of an eye.
5. getting to know new people is hard. hard for them and harder for me.
6. I open up a lot more when I’m exhausted.
7. If i close my eyes and pray everything instantly can get better even if it does not seem that way right away.
8. you create your own loneliness…it is never really ever there.
9. clingyness is NOT cute nor is pretending to be someone else.
10. one simple lie can ruin something that was starting to become something great.
11. smile when you don’t want to smile you are blessed more than you know.
12. i think too much.
